A Koinonia of Like-Minded Individuals

Friends have always been a gift from God. But, of course, there are some of them who really stand worthy of our trust. Others would just come by to say hi and brush you off after difficulties are evidently surfacing which affects them in some way. My experience with them have been outstanding though some of them shy away because their trust were lost as they know what I’ve been through. But, I promise you, I have handful of friends who shared so many good things with me and when anytime I am in trouble and alone these people has sacrificed their time to make sure I am all right.

I have a friend who’s working in the US and she has this wonderful message that truly delivers right through my heart:

halo kuya, musta naka? I hope you’re doing good inspite what you’re experiencing now. I’ve read your blog and that’s when I understand what you’ve been going through now.

I keep on interceding for you through my prayer. Galamiton ka sa Ginoo… you’ve got talents that others don’t… that’s why the enemy is attacking you, he wants to steal and destroy what you have built up for God. It’s really a warfare though… keep on praying…
don’t let your situation shake your faith and drag you away from God.
Past is past… and what God has already forgiven, He don’t remember it anymore.
Keep on praying about what God is really wanting you to do. You might say you lose the ministry that you really love. But maybe He is going to open a new opportunity out of the blue.

Remember He brings us in a place that we don’t want… but later on it’s still be the best one for us. And it’s still the way that he could fully use us.
Because people just really want to do things in their comfort zone…they don’t want to go out of the comfort zone. They say “this is where i want to do coz this is where my love is….” But His plan is not the same with ours… you get what I mean? I hope so… heheehe

He has a nice future in store for you…
Strengthen up your weaken knees and continue praising God again.
God bless you..

Thanks Ems, you surely know how to care though you’re thousand of miles away. To all Emnace family, I salute you dearly beloved. Of course, a special mention would suffice. I’ve been gratefully indebted to Aileen and El2x for sharing all their loving thoughts in my difficult moments. I thank my God for accompanying me everytime.

Kuya Loy here…

What an exhausting month, weeks and days I do have here. Since my last post, I carried with me unforgettable experiences which almost sapped my remaining spiritual and physical strength, so to speak. Believe me, intrigues has been, indeed, so destructive. But do I have a choice? If I do, that other choice would not even help me in the long run. If I choose to leave the faith and be a useless creature on earth, would it pay the necessary compensation that I demand in life? That would certainly be anathema!

What am I saying? It takes a lot of courage to open up one’s life to any stranger or acquaintance, in general and even to a close friend, in particular especially when it has something to do with a black page in your life. But, what will happen when that black page you keep for more than 30 years become public and transparent? Would you ran away, or just pretend it didn’t happen, if at all? I’m sure you couldn’t even think straight if you’re wearing my shoes.

I mentioned in my last post that I resigned from my Bible teaching career–that was 3 months ago. That resignation is untimely in its truest sense. I said untimely, it’s because I thought I can still get away from a scandalous issue until the end of the semester. Unfortunately, I was quite naive at that time since in reality, it turned out to be a “nightmare in the making”. I was advised by the school admin to resign so that it will not be too hard for me  to take if days or weeks after I will be terminated if found guilty.

Of course, I chose to resign. All I thought I did a good job with such a decision. I was wrong. The issue I was facing becomes a ghost that keeps coming over and over again and will prevail until such time I may decide to find my mate. I hope so.

What makes the matter worst? Just this week, I faced one crucial decision of leaving the music team I cared so much. G-First Band was created more than 10 years ago and I am one of its founding members. I manage to create songs for that band until this week. I really don’t want to make a scene as I respect the people I worked with. I understand their intentions and I respect it as much as they respect our higher cause. We have to defend it, indeed.

I have mixed emotions. It took me too long to face the real thing. At last, they decided to suspend me, though, as they say, it’s just temporary. But, I really don’t know if I can trust that decision. No one knows the future of course. With majority of my composed songs included in that recording, how I wished I am still part of the group singing songs I wrote like, “SA DALAN MO.” My name could not even be found in the final CD as its original composer not to mention 8 of the songs are my own. It makes my heart sank, and my mouth dropped, my stomach even stings. I can’t do something about it. At least, not now.

What remains in me is the campus ministry I personally supervised. If people around would start to chase me down the alley and submit me to the higher tribunal, then that would be the end of my story. I would then be history. I do hope and pray the strength of the Lord would carry me through this hardest times of my life. Without Him, I really would be crushed to pieces right at this moment. To the people who has the ministry of prayer and reconciliation, please bring my name in your prayers to the mercy seat of God so that I can be enlivened by the Spirit of God.

Again, this is an old post 2 months ago before I resigned from my teaching position at Dalwangan Theological Seminary.

It’s hard to imagine that I will be leaving a job I cared so much. I still can imagine myself talking and discussing my subjects in front of my students. Of course I was deeply affected of my own drastic decision. No one wants to end this so early. My students could not even fathom why in an instant I will leave them when they don’t know the real reason why I got to decide with such a hurry.

All I think for now is the notion that nothing’s permanent in this world. My only prayer is for God to carry me through this hard times I’ve been experiencing right now. Many people has been hurt. My friends and those acquainted with what I am doing were all surprised of my sudden decision. Is there any way I can patch up those precious times I spent half-heartedly? Maybe I was only overwhelmed with all the cares of this world that I have forgotten how God has rescued me many times along this hard trodden path of life being a vessel ready for the Master’s use. He has been very merciful to me despite all my struggles and failures in life.

Why should I be bitter? I’ve been through this experience many times and I’ve learn a lot from it. I know how painful the experience is but as I meditate upon God’s goodness, I now realized that I don’t have to go through this the next time. I need to graduate from this repetitive struggle so that I can qualify for the next grade of trials I will be going through.

For now, my goal is to see to it that the campus ministry will be successful in its endeavor to glorify God among students in the secular world of education. Thank God for the ready and willing workers whose desire is to glorify God in their own lives.

Welcome to ZerLake Today! I myself is pretty amused and excited for, at long last, with all life’s busyness, I  managed to post my first official blog.  Whew! It’s so hard to imagine that this site already  has existed in the net for more than two years now and yet only today did I got the nerve to be serious of what I am doing.

I am thinking of so many things to write though. With my limited vocabulary and all the struggle to make my point, here I am, sharing my very own experiences, thoughts, beliefs, principles, projects, ministries, and everything in between. I hope I am in the right track, so to speak. God willing, I will push myself up and through all the difficulties I’m gonna experiencing today and the next day after that.

Despite all time constraints and busy schedules, I’m proud to say that my website is up and running. It keeps me wondering how the Lord has sustained me through difficult times and discouraging years. My faith in Him may sometimes waver, but I thank Him for giving me the strength to push through.

May this year and the days onward be a time of celebration and continuous blessing from the Lord. I trust that He will be true to His promises. I give thanks to my only God and Father, Jesus Christ. To Him be glory, honor, and power forever. Amen.